This Sunday I performed a fifteen minute long TEDx talk. The entire process was intriguing and led to a lot of reflection. The subject of the talk was the art of saying goodbye and how I’ve learned to take breaks in my relationships without that meaning the definitive end of them. I enjoyed the entire process; from selections in November, writing and rehearsing my speech until late at night and of course the manifestation of my hard work in the actual event.
It felt relevant to my current situation, thinking back that is. In seven days I will sit in aeroplanes, go through 3 airports and finally arrive home with my family for the holidays. To be blunt, these past months have flown away and I’m already starting to sense this feeling of urgency around me; 1st term is ending, but for some 3rd term is ending and they are soon reaching the definitive beginning of the end. Responsibilities in extracurriculars are being passed on slowly, college acceptance letters are arriving in pigeon holes and a melancholic winter blues is slowly taking its toll on us. I always thought winter depression was exclusive to darkness and cold weather, however it’s just as present here in 31 degrees C.
I’ve linked parts of the speech down below and a picture of me looking clever.
“If only I had thought about the leave
The physical separation from my past environment
It would have been much easier
This was how I learned it the first time
And believe me – The hard part isn’t the first week there
It’s the second one, the third and the fourth one
When the magic wears of and you get time to think
You lie there alone at night
You’re supposed to sleep, but you remember that one person you didn’t say a good goodbye to
This is horrible
So before you leave, understand that you are leaving
Prepare for it – So you won’t have sleepless nights.”